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[02 Nov 2005|01:37pm] |
friends only
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[10 Oct 2005|05:00pm] |
its only me whom i need to worry about.
i claim no one as of now.
i have NO best friend although i may be anothers best friend.
i have NO boyfriend, although he might claim me to be "his."
there is an ending in everything and if you keep it like that then in the end technicly your not loosing anything.
am i wrong ?
<3
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| gah ! |
[04 Oct 2005|08:40am] |
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he hasnt left yet =] and since hes been back we've spent everyday together. but what happens when he leaves again? what am i supposed to do then !! gaaaaaah. my luck.. i got my HORRIBLE senior pics in yesterday. SICK lol. i hate them so much. they look so freakin fake cause they pose you and shit. i take better pictures when im drunk and crazy lol thats more ME. haha. i miss my girls.. ive been spending most my time with him so ya know. SOME ONE FIND ME A JOB !! im beyond desperate. i need my hair highlighted, nails AND feetdone, god forbid i need to go shopping haha all my stuff disappeared, i guess thats what happens when you become poor and get fired lol. oh well.
just a quick update..<3 peace -n- love <3
( ..mY wReTcHeD SeNior piCs.. )
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[29 Sep 2005|04:43pm] |
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he comes back tonight !! <3 <3
=] =] =] =] =] =] =] =] =]
gah, but besides that i feel sick !!
which sucks cause i have that bikini
contest tomorrow for the beaches calander.
oh well, i could give 2 shits about it really.
there will be mooooooooooore.
today is thursday and im sure not
getting crazy tonight.
i need rest.
my cousin came in town for a few weeks.
i have to try to stay out of trouble hanging out with that girl
haha alee knows.
"WOMP WOMP WOMP"
ah hehehehehehehehehehhe
hopefully "he" doesnt drag me out to a bar tonight for his homecoming.
eh.
<3 lara-marie
ps: maria we are gonna have fun this weekend ! fuck whatchu heard !
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[19 Sep 2005|06:59pm] |
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gaaah .. i want to do something tongiht so i dont have to sit here and think about him. i hate mondays though. i dont have a set thing to do. im going to try to drag alee out of the house. or i might just gt drunk and ride bikes with stephanie. either sounds fine to me. <3
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[23 Jul 2005|04:32pm] |
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amazing.
alee, you will never believe what happened. ;0]
YES!
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[20 Jul 2005|07:05pm] |
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i know this road ahead is going to be a big change and will take awhile to get used to.
i know i can make it though..
other then that, today was a good day.
got alot acomplished at least.
got ID pics taken.
ate perkins.
watched a WEIRD ass movie at alee's.
ate some more.
went surfing..
getting our ID's were def the funnest part haha.
i was soooooooo stoned. lol
and alee was just as bad.
we we get em im deff going to put them on here hahahaha.
but im off.
time to get ready.
peace and looooooooove <3!
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[01 Jul 2005|02:56pm] |
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mmm.. last night was fun
considering there was nothing to do
just my favorite girls and lots of liquor and beer
you boys missed out ;o]
hahahahahahahahahahaha.
today is freedom friday
and its raining AGAIN..
blah blah blah.
"It's been three years since I'm knockin' on your door,
And I still can knock some more:
Ooh girl, ooh girl, is it feasible?
I wanna know now, for I to knock some more.
Ya see, in life I know there's lots of grief,
But your love is my relief:
Tears in my eyes burn - tears in my eyes burn
While I'm waiting - while I'm waiting for my turn,
See!"
LA LA LAAAA!
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| WARNING! |
[28 Jun 2005|06:53pm] |
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x 904 hxc: dude, you know we are going to win any costume contest AGAIN... we're are unstopable and unbeatable... it's because they can't hate us cause' they aint us hahahaha p-fucking-thetic!
be ready bitches!
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[26 Jun 2005|11:47pm] |
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work flat out sucked.
my back hurts like hell.
not to mention my shoulder.
matt and i broke up.
im just waiting for me fish
to die next or SOMETHING!
ugh.
and whats to look foward too?
monday.
I HATE MONDAYS!
<3
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[25 Jun 2005|05:27pm] |
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this fucking sucks!
i cant sit in this god damn hell hole of a house ANY LONGER!
this is driving me nuts not being able to leave when i want.
life really sucks right now.
i wish everything was the way it was before.
fuck it all.
<3 lara..
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| [[ fucking <3 rawr ]] |
[24 Jun 2005|05:28pm] |
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so icccccccey
ps:this was before the accident. obviously. im just showing my boredem. i need a vistor =[. love you guys. <3
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| my story. |
[24 Jun 2005|03:04pm] |
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take my story and use it as an example, please.
the only way you can understand how precious life is, is if it is almost takin away from you in a split second. yesterday morning i made the mistake of getting in my car and driving drunk. i dont recall doing this, thats how fucking plastered i was. andrea witnessed that. falling asleep at the wheel, i cut across 2 lanes of on-coming traffic nearly t boneing a car but by the grace of god missed them, if i would of hit them i could of taken their life. this thus causeing me to wrap my truck around a tree and hitting a concrete wall head on. i woke up from being un concious to my air bags deployed, confused, and to a man (my guardian angel)helping me get out of my mangled vehicle. once i saw the blood all over i litteraly freaked out. screaming and screaming then passing out. once i got to the hospital they backboaded me, straped me down and treated me as if i had a broken neck. this was the scariest thing ever. i got about 12 x-rays on my neck and back and 2 cat scans. the air bag burned and scraped my whole left shoulder, left arm, and the left side of my neck.. my nose is swollen and im starting to get balck eyes. if my cousin had left with me like i wanted her to she would of prob been killed because i had turned off my passenger air bag for my little newpew who i had hung out with the day before and i forgot to turn it back on. she would of flew right though the window and i dont think i could ever live with out her. everyone at the scene of the accident said i should of died and the man who helped me out of the truck actually thought i was dead until i woke up. i was wearing no seat belt and hit the tree and the cement wall at 50 mph. its makes me even more confused because i feel like i didnt deserve to come out the way i did. yes, i was in the hostpial all day but nothing was broken, no brain damage from my concussion, everything will heal with time. im just in a great deal of pain 24/7. why did i desevere to live and nick dyer, matt perret, and evan ghramn had to pay the price? if i would of died yesterday morning i would of left behind my family that does nothing but worry about me because i am the way i am, a boyfriend who really does care about me (though some disagree) he would of been heartbroken, a best friend who i woudlnt even know what to do if she left me (alee i fucking love you), a million and one friends, and just a precious life that was givin to me to make something out of, not to cut it short. i just wanted to aploigize to everyone that i made worry yesterday (though most everyone really didnt know about it) because i now understand the actions and decisions i make will effect everyone i come in contact with, even innocent people. i love everyone who cares for me and i want everyone who reads this think twice and look at me as an example, not being lucky, but it could of been way worse, i shouldnt even be here right now.
ALEE- i love you to death, thank you for what you put on livejournal because your prayers were answered, you know how bad it could of been but i got lucky. i would nevber be able to live with out you. <3
ANDREA- thank you for caring so much. you really dont know how it made me feel to know someone that was once my best friend still worries and cares about me. it really means alot. i love you!
♥ lara
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